idiot

how could you even think that it would have lasted?
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vent
i can be an incredibly abusive person
but i really dont mean to be

its more or less a constantly active defense mechanism
im truly scared to let my guard down around

just about everybody
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you didn't deserve any of the things i did to you
and i know that you said you've forgiven me already but
if anything at all, i just want you to know that i'm truly fucking sorry
and if we ever meet again someday, i want to take the chance to make it up to you

for now, though, good luck in your life, and all that you do..
i'm sorry i couldn't be a better person for you.